Have you ever been so frustrated that you just wanted to sit and do nothing?  I was trying to stretch my "new" shoulder/arm and it hurts to no end…  I got so frustrated that I just sat and wanted to go nowhere, say nothing, do nothing… I just want to be back to normal.  Is that ever going to be possible?

We had hamburgers for dinner, Christmas Eve, and we were going to go look at Christmas lights but Zoe said, "I already saw lights, let’s go home and open our new PJ’s and go to bed."  So, here we are at 9:00pm on Christmas Eve with both kids asleep.  PARTY!  Zane has been a pill today–I am missing out on his precious tender moments.  One of the hardest things about recovery and no use of the strength in my right arm is that I can’t hold Zane.  He wants to be held and snuggled, he wants me to pick him up.  I feel like I break his heart every time I can’t pick him up when he comes to me with raised arms.  He probably wonders what he did wrong! 

We are so excited about Christmas tomorrow.  Zoe is a little nervous about Santa Claus coming into her house but it will be ok since he is leaving gifts.  Tim got his gift today from my mom-his car was detailed and it looks great.

My Christmas gift from Tim was my bike.  Actually, it was my birthday, my anniversary, and my Christmas gift.  Well, let’s just say that not only was my gift beautiful, but it was crashed on the first day that I took it for a ride— DECEMBER 3rd.

I would have loved to go for a morning ride tomorrow!  Man, life changed quickly…  I used to be able to use my right arm, which brings me right back to my frustration! 

Today, I was so grateful for the excitement that Christmas Eve brings, the simplicity and availability of hamburgers, friends that make me laugh-even though laughing hurts, spending time with Zoe and some friends getting our toes painted, the ability to WALK–at least I am still able to walk!  It is beautiful outside and Zoe and I went for a little walk…