Just skip this, move on with your life.  This is just the ramblings of a mind that has had not sleep…

If you were to stop by at this very moment, you may think you were at the wrong house.  Me, unshowered, spilled apple juice on the floor that I have yet to clean up so the sticky mess is still shiny and proud, dirty dishes in the sink, messy blankets on the couch, clothes in the hall that haven’t made it to the laundry room, Zane’s bike in the kitchen, school papers all over the counter, a bucket full of medicines-every kind for a child that has a fever, cough, goupy red eyes and a runny gross nose, and some half eaten Chik-Fil-A near the sink.  (hold on, I will go take care of that part right now)   Check. done!

(Actually, I love visitors and I don’t mind that you see this RED girl trying to be pink.  My house is NOT always clean.  Come see… you will, phew.)

OK, I am back.  Zane, man that boy can talk.  He has been a sick little kid today.  He has told me at least three thousand times, “mommy, I not feewing good.  I need metusin.”  He says it will a smile and a cute raspy voice from coughing.  That is the maximum complaint that boy has given me today.  He slept for about 2 hours last night, actually it was morning-6:30-8:30am.  He was plopped in front of the TV to allow others to sleep and he said at about 6:30 when Zoe woke for school that he was going to bed, and did.  I thought he would crash at “quiet time” but he fought to lay on the couch or be by my side.  I am tired, I am not interested in cleaning (obviously myself or the house) and I just want him to be healthy.  Finally, around 2, I gave up and decided to go outside and get some air.  Naps were not in the picture for us.  We went to Kristen’s house, borrowed Fui and Josie, and strolled to the park.  It was good to get out.  

Most of the day while inside, I was on the computer either debating between logos for a photography business, emailing Tim (it turns out that we can have great conversations via email, I should have known!) or catching up on all my favorite blogs. 

I was excited that the calendar showed CLEAR DAY, and I had to make tomorrow an almost clear day.  That is what you do as a mother.  Word to those still yet to conceive… pay attention here.  Parenthood is spelled like this-SACRAFICE.  I love Zane, I love the time we have together.  I actually feel guilty (oh, yes… parenthood can also be spelled like this-GUILT) because I was distracted by my laptop.  I should have just watched Monsters, Inc. over and over like he wanted.

So, as postless as this is, it is just another day in the life…

Oh, one more thing-I have lots on my plate.  I am an involved type of gal and like to make things happen.  I usually take on things without thinking through how much I can really do and still balance my life.  So, yesterday I was overwhelmed and realized that I needed to make some changes.  I did and I am proud of myself.  I was able to give up some things.  I really am anxious to start up something with photography and with this new opportunity around the corner, I want that to be my focus.  I need to get much in place-organization is my (sick) life.  One day at a time should be what I tell myself instead.  : )  jsyk, I am taking note of the things that I think about on a daily basis:

–completing the March calendar for babysitting co-op (email out requests to have shifts filled, then copy and send the month to all members)

–buying plane tickets and organizing the rental car situation for women’s conference.  (April/May)

–completing the plans for a Disneyland trip with my daughter and 3 other mother and daughter teams… need park pricing, hotel reservations, etc. (March)

–my photography logo, business plan, price sheet, what am I offering and not offering.  This is huge-it will make or break me.  My website, my image, my business or is it? (March)  VERY time consuming.  But, I want this for me!  I need this for me!  This one can’t be postponed or ignored…

–planning the enrichment activity for March and all the other months- getting committees together, planning meetings, follow-up meetings, etc.(March)

–laminating miniature ward lists for the gift at the March activity

–completing the process of selecting a logo for fellow neighborhood cyclists then submitting for estimates, selecting a company to print and of course taking the orders…  and having jerseys made (ASAP)

–approving and all other management concerns for Queen Creek Friends (our neighborhood email group) (all the time)

–OH, raising my children, focusing on my relationship and helping to make a happy home. (all the time)

I do it to myself.  I know.  I know.  I love my community.

And, as you know, I recently had a post about “will it ever be enough.” even as I spell out “tasks” I think about other things like daily scripture study, some time to read something that can help me escape, exercising, fixing my garden, taking care of my pool, playing with my kids, cooking something fabulous, serving others, making friends, losing weight, etc.  It really is never enough.  OK, so I need some YOGA!  And, I feel myself getting sick. 

I am enjoying my blogging outlet-ya know, talking to myself.  I am thankful for music. (are you starting to think I am a nutcase?  How many things have I covered in the last few paragraphs?) I am thankful for inspirations.  I am thankful for this awesome, beautiful, perfect weather.  I am thankful for new friends and old.  The dear ones…  I am thankful that my hair is a mess even when I supposedly put it together-it makes days like today no different than any other “bad hair” day.  I am thankful, in a weird way, for Facebook.  I have connected with my very own sister—at least I get to see her updates and they are fun for me.  I am thankful for Clorox wipes and hope they have worked magic in my home.  I am thankful for Tim’s stable job.  I am thankful for those creative and talented people who have mastered presentation.  I am letting that goal go for 2009.  I am grateful for technology!  And, I am grateful that is it 10:21 and I am saying goodnight!