Now it is so late, I am not even sure that it is worth trying to fall asleep.  As you know, with me one thought flows into the next.  It is often hard for me to FOCUS!  I should focus on going to sleep right now…  

I was just about to shut down but my desktop has a picture of my kids.  There you are, Zane and Zoe, sitting together smiling at me.  It is as if you knew I would be writing and struggling with the balance of my time in a day.  You two bring all sorts of emotions on in a day, ya know.  I go from being in love to being irritated, from peaceful to chaotic, from soft to loud, from teacher to student, from cook to cleaner, and everything in between.  I am thinking about motherhood today.  I am thinking about all that a woman will do for her kids.  I am thinking about the unexplainable amount of love, the overloads of kisses and hugs.  I am thinking about all that needs to be balanced or try to balance.  I am thinking about all the people that have walked before me in motherhood shoes.  I am thinking about the future mothers.  I am thinking that you, Zoe, will be a better mother than me.  I am thinking about a mother of a toddler, a mother of a teenager, a mother of an adult.  I am praying for mothers. 

I can’t think of anything I wouldn’t do for you (including missing my precious sleep for many reasons but the most recent being my desire to create a keepsake for our time together in Disneyland).  Zane and Zoe, you are my treasure! 

I am thinking right now about a nap tomorrow… how can I swing it?  : )